Tis the season of overwhelming sad.

Day 95! I feel overwhelmed by any content of happiness i see. Insta, Fb, News, Youtube whatever. It starts aching badly. I hate everything. I hate living. Completely abhor everything. Wish for death every night. I know i am being a moron, as i need to be there for kids. I will. I am trying. Was just describing how i feel. I feel to be dead every moment of not having her.

Life was so easy when was with her. God made a mistake and i hate HIM for this. Forever enraged.