Love in Transit.
I have always missed you meri jaan, not a day passes by when I don’t miss you. Everything was with you, days are passing by — but the feeling of not finding you nearby, is unbearable. I don’t have any idea about what I will do next, but I just strive to, what I can do for our kids. I cry, cry and cry thinking that God…
I did what i did for you. My Mary Jane.
All the past 4 years of the “Till death do us part” bliss, I did whatever i did for you. It was so easy to just love you, adore you, work to earn a living for you. To see the beauty in other women and let you know that whoever and however beautiful, fashionable, rich she looks. You are the one who matters. You are the one for which i…
Tis the season of overwhelming sad.
Day 95! I feel overwhelmed by any content of happiness i see. Insta, Fb, News, Youtube whatever. It starts aching badly. I hate everything. I hate living. Completely abhor everything. Wish for death every night. I know i am being a moron, as i need to be there for kids. I will. I am trying. Was just describing how i feel. I feel to be dead every moment of not having her. Life was so easy when was with her. God made a mistake and i hate HIM for this. Forever enraged.
Everyday is a haunting reminder of the loss that has befallen on me. I look at the day that passed by on September 23, 2021 and cry everyday, because everyday is the same. Clock strikes 12 in the noon, and after that each hour, the heart withered away so mercilessly. Had to shatter all the dreams and let her go to the grave. Had fallen so many times to see if its real, and it just was. Cried, Lost, Fallen to the knees, and praying for the inevitable.
Unable. Just Unable.
Unable to breath, Unable to work, Unable to focus. Unable to love. Unable to hold onto my kids and love them without crying. Unable to watch anything, Unable to play. Unable to move. Unable to feel. Unable to be happy. Unable to move on. I am so stuck, I have no idea what to do next. I cry and pass the time.